Fighting to hold on, clinging to just one more day
Love turns to ashes, with all that I wish I could say
I’d die to be where you are, I tried to be where you are
Every night, I dream you’re still here
The ghost by my side, so perfectly clear
When I awake, you’ll disappear
Back to the shadows, with all I hold dear
I dream you’re still here.
I wish I believed in Heaven, or afterlife, or reincarnation, or something, so I could say goodbye. I wish life had meaning, so that your death could have meaning.
But I don’t, and it doesn’t, and all I can say is today was gloomy, in your honor. And the world is little bit darker without your rare kindness. As far as I am concerned, in my little corner of reality, the world had no right to off you, just because you were bright and loving in spite of it.
The only thing I can do, that feels like it has any meaning, is avenge you by revisiting the concept of hope. I will do my best to make the world lighter in your absence, for your little girls, and your baby predator.
I miss you already.